Instead, I let my mind wander. Unfortunately, this is the most common time for me to remember to-do list items, which I of course later forget because I can't write them down while I am driving. Other than that, I can't even begin to list all of the things that come through my mind.
[ Events. Life Lessons. People. Situations. Memories. Food. Regrets. Plans. And so much more. ]
My mind doesn't just do this while I am driving. It does this really at any point when I have a moment to just live in my own head.
It wasn't until this morning that I realized how chaotic and crazy it is. I almost wish I had a scribe in my mind who could write down a script of everything I think about just so I can see the extreme nature of it.
I've always known that my mind's speed was crazy fast. I realized that the reason I speak extremely quickly is to try and get my thoughts out before I forget them. A friend also recently pointed out how I type so insanely fast, and that too is so I can get my thoughts out in time. I overanalyze things way too much because I think about one situation or thing way more than I probably should. Even as I type this, I am mentally rambling about it and how I should best type it out.
But I realized this morning that this isn't healthy. No, I don't mean "unhealthy" like my brain is suddenly going to combust or like I'm wearing myself down.
It's unhealthy because I don't make myself be quiet and listen for a long period of time to God. I hear God all the time and He speaks to me all of the time. But I don't live out that verse of "be still and know that I am God" because I am never 100% fully still.
I, and we all, need to just turn off the power and rest in who God is and what He is saying. I need to stop trying to figure everything out on my own and let God write my to-do list... in His words and His way. Not only does He have a far better plan for me, but He has the ability to make a list while I am driving :)
love this!
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